Haha.. I'm laughing at myself now.. Now I believe about the earnest of being patient.

Life now in Maldives getting better.. even without Starbucks and McDonald's (and McCafe.. damn i missed it now) and of course Satay and KFC.. I'm such an addict for mass consumer product.

I'm loving my job for now. The new product was launched with no major difficulty. I have a very good team to support me. Well, another Malaysian that we click along since very first day. She such a company to keep me busy here.. haha with work that is.. but still hang out buddy also.

Last week, the regional director from Singapore came and visit to see how's the new product is.. since he was here during the launch a month ago.. and he is very happy with it. He even start to discuss about my future plan with this company. Well, I also surprised since I didn't expected for him to pop the questions so early since it's only been few month for this season. I have signed a year contract for 2 seasons.. so I told him that I decided to finish my contract here for a year.. then only I can decide.

Then this Malaysian friend of mine (well there's only 4 Malaysians here, and I'm the second person that hold a high possition after her; and we have at least 10 different nationalities here) told me about all the stuffs about how to work here better. I mean in this company. I think I might give a go if things looking very good. But I told the Director about my direction in this company, my thoughts and my goals. He said it's okay if I leave the company and come back later. I have my plan now. I want and dream to work with a better company that can promise me a great experience than I know where to move around. Also she mentioned that it's a bit too late for me to move and jump around which is true since I'm aging.. but still if I trust myself and believe that I could do, why not..

Still I have another dream of mine.. Photography.. well.. i have to put on hold for couple of months since I'm busy with something else here.. RUNNING!! Yeah.. I'm back on the run.. Seriously.. now I have to be extra careful with it.. since I don't want to injure myself again..

Btw, I have bought a new digital camera back in Febuary.. that I still not using to the fullest.. Nikon D300.. well, it's a long term investment. Now and then I'm still playing with it.. just that I don't really give a good time to make use of it.. maybe in few weeks time I will do..

I have nothing to complain about life now.. I have understand the state of enjoying of the fullest in life before it's too late.. I think my life is balanced.. Alhamdullilah.. Insyallah.. I will keep this way.. Till then.. Life is beautiful.. (there's a funny things going on with this phrase)

Love and peace..

HELLO WORLD! AGAIN! HAHA

I need to stop on keeping doing like this.
It's been a long hiatus.. The last post was when I was in Malaysia.
For those who didn't know.. I was in Macau since August 2007 till March 2008. Things weren't working out well. Not I am in Maldives. Sunny islands, beautiful coral and clear water.

Well, last year before I went to Macau, I was admitted to ICU for 4 days. That actually a sign for me not to go. But I was insisted to leave. I was in ICU for being diagnose with weak heart. By this stupid so called specialist. Well, he is a specialist but not cardiac specialist, he is ENT specialist. I was misdiagnose and mispending the money on the hospital bills. It was almost RM6K for that matter! FUCKING BULLSHIT!!

Alright, I am over it already. Now, I'm in Maldives. So I will try not to keep on a very long hiatus on updating this blog alright!

I promise!

Well, I can post the blog using dial up, but now today i am in Male, inside this telephone shop, dragging my this-heavy-like-a-stone laptop of mine. Talking about this laptop, well, it's almost 3 years old, been to 4 countries, dropped by this stupid bag boy in New York City and still looking strong! Love this bitch! I bought a new digital camera also, now I bought with my heart contented, Nikon D300. The old one, gave for a LOAN to my sister. The Sony, well, when I bought it, i kindda have to settle for it, since I don't have much experience in photography and all. Now I am ok to move forward to DSLR. Love the D300! Well, now need to spend more time taking and reading about how to take a great composition!!
Alright for now!
See ya!

Everything seems to be just right for now. The job in Macau is confirmed. The work permit is done. The date of leaving is confirmed. So again, everything seems to be A OK or else. But I'm not.. Last night I didn't sleep at all because thinking about this. Life in Macau. How different it would be than in US. I know for sure that I won't about to go to gym like I am right now. That's not much of a problem. The real problem is that I'm scared that I can't adjust myself living in Chinese speaking nation. Where it's totally different from here. To that in mind, I'm having a cold feet about this. The thought that makes me want to go is, I want to be away from Malaysia, I want to see and live in different country, as in Asia. This would be, again, a chance of a lifetime. I want to know how different my life would be, the life in US (Western country) and East. This is going to be interesting. This will be a challenge for me. I also want to learn new technique for my job. I want to move on and learn as much as I can. I want to step-up to have a better position. I want to build my resume and not forgetting I want to travel.

I haven't yet leave Malaysia or even start packing, but I already planned my travel itinerary for my next vacation. Haha.. Yeah.. I decided to go to Sydney, Australia. The good thing about traveling nowadays is that there's a ala carte of making a choices with the current No Frills Airlines (it's not Air Asia entirely). I have checked the cheap or budget-minded-traveler to choose for airline that fly from and out of Macau. Tiger Airlines, Viva Macau and of course Air Asia. So right now, I have decided to work hard, save as much as I can and travel to Sydney by mid 2008 (better if I could get few weeks off on my birthday week).

For all reason, I am very excited to start my new job in the new world with a bunch of new people in the most luxury hotel in Asia. Can't wait!!

This definitely sucks as you might think.. but for me, it's a real issue. It's July 2007, I'm back for almost a year now. Damn.. what did I ever accomplished since I came back? Hmm.. Nothing a big deal, but for what I have understand now, I hate to be 'stuck' here, where I called HOME.

Yesterday, I went to Ikano Power Center, went to Ikea to get something. Then I went to Cold Storage just want to find out if the have my favorite cereal of all time. YES THEY DO HAVE IT! KASHI GO LEAN! YAY! I was excited. I said YES! I smiled! I'm happy. They actually just brought in to Malaysia like 2 or 3 days ago. Coz they have it display all over Cold Storage. But to be despaired the price is DAMN EXPENSIVE! TOO EXPENSIVE for a box of cereal. When I was in State that was my staple cereal for all time. Sometimes I mixed it with Honey Bunch Of Oats Almond or Banana.. But most of the time I ate just it is. Can you imagine for a box of cereal the price is RM24.00? For 400g of cereal.. I used to pay for US$5.50 or less if I bought it from Amazon (I did bought 4 boxes of that plus, 3 boxes of Kashi TLC (love that too.. they do have it in Cold Storage for RM12.00 per box) and a box of 12 bars Kashi Protein Bar (for my backpacking trip). I think the whole things didn't cost me more than US$35 at all. Plus I don't have to pay states tax (since I bought it from Amazon) and shipping (since I was a Amazon Prime Shipping member , you don't have to pay the shipping if the total more than US$25. But I did get 3 days shipping for free. I was overjoyed when I got the big box from Amazon that filled with cereals. My colleagues thought I was kidding when I told them it's cereal.. coz nobody bought cereals from Amazon.. haha.

So since it's overly expensive, I had to say no. I didn't get it at all. Maybe one day if I'm really really need it.. then I will buy it and eat it all by myself. No sharing!! Haha

I'm having an interview tonight. The job for the Caribbean position. Now, I'm still clueless which one I will choose if I got the job. Asian country or Caribbean? DAMN!!

Later...

Just an update after a while..

Things are going well.. well so well that yesterday was my last day but I didn't go to work at all. Couldn't care less about it.. I just hate that place. Well.. in fact the Sous Chef and me did not talking at all. I don't know why but I just don't want to be bothered with it. But it did makes leaving so much easy... well.. i do have few friends that I get along with but others.. well they are two-faced cows..

I turned down the PCMC offer. I know.. everyone told me just to hold on it first.. but well, if i agreed, I have to tender my resignation for a month, even on the probation period. Well, that sucks.. The benefits.. nah.. nothing.. Not really like what I have expected. Pays was a little bit better but can't beat the over c job..

Alright.. I got an interview pending for another job somewhere on the other side.. nearby Bahamas.. but I'm not so sure right now.. the offers and salary and the benefits.. well.. right now, I'm thinking of just the job for me to grow.. no matter where.. I need to grow my career.

Later...

Went back to Johor last week. Spend the whole weekend there. Went to a friend wedding with one of my closest friend back in High School days, A. But sadly, I didn't met anyone from my high school mates at all. I was hopping to bump into them but I guess I was wrong. "A" and me were talking that after certain age, all of us kindda losing track on our school friends, which is sad because none of us wanted to keep in touch, except only few of us. I mean only few of us, maybe just 3 of us. Anyway, the trip back to Johor was very good. Even I had to get another MC on Sunday since I didn't managed to get the ticket back to KL. Thank God that "A" was going back to KL to I just tagged along with him.

Monday, I submitted my resignation letter. Never feel so good about it! That's my second resignation letter this year! How stable my career is!! But I have another plan right now which going really well now.

Tuesday, got a call from a high profile company in Malaysia offering a job that I went for the interview last month. They offering a good pays and kindda good benefits too. They gave me only one day to think it through. Which is really pissed, because I really need more time to think about it. I had to say NO since I already have another plan. So just focus on this plan. Anyway, I finalized all the paper work except waiting for the Good Conduct Report from the M'sian Gov. Then I'm all set to board the flight! Yeah!!

Feel sluggish this whole week, didn't go to the gym as much as I wanted. Feel like gained a few kilos. But maybe I did with all the eating at work. Darn, I wish I could have more discipline like what I used to have... I think I'm having eating disorder now.

I think I'm done with my current job. I never feel so unmotivated at all ever in my career life. Called me unprofessional but I don't care. But ever since I got this job I know it won't be long as I never like the environment, the management and also my job descriptions. Mainly I decided to leave this job because it has nothing to do with my specialty at all. All I have done basically just like a low level worker. I have nothing to learn or even improve.

I'm going back to Johor tomorrow. I'm going to think about my next step. I'm going to tender my resignation on Monday. It would be 2 weeks notice as supposed for a month notice for even in probation period. We had to work 9 hours a day (an hour deducted for break time) which is stupid since we still have to work for 6 days a week. There's so many fuck-up shits with this current company that I'm working with. It's time for me to move on.

Today, I'm taking an MC which I never had done before in my career life. This is a first time. Which I'm ashamed that I have to do it since I would never ever done it. But then again, there's a lot of things to do today. I have to go to the lab to take my lab result. I'm getting everything done for my medical report for the my Macau job. Should have completed but since I was working overnight for the past weeks don't have time to do it at all. The X-ray should have done by y'day but the clinic having problem with the radiologist that she told me can't be done as early as I wanted. She told me it might be ready by tomorrow. Hopefully it's done by tomorrow so that I could send the report tomorrow before going back to Johor. I need to finish this whole thing ASAP.

I called Marriott New Orleans last monday. My ex-exec chef is going away to California. I need to give an email to him to congratulate him on his next post. I talked with Ms Caroline for almost half an hour. We talked about lots of stuffs. I haven't spoken with her since I got back. She kept asking me when I'm going to come back to New Orleans, which I can't answer it at all. Things have changed. If I got the job in UK before, I will go back there but now since I'm going to be based in Asia, so it's a little bit hard go back there. But I still have plan to go back there for a visit only. I missed New Orleans...